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As I learn more Kabbalah and my desire grows, my “goal” will probably evolve. But at this point my goal is to build a 2nd nature-an altruistic nature- on top of my egoistic nature. Gradually transforming (changing) my Intention from Receiving (pleasure) for myself alone, to reception for the sake of Sharing, for the sake of the Creator. To attract the “Reforming Light” and build a Kli with a Masach, which will enable me to Feel and Reveal the Creator, and to cross the Barrier (Machsom) and ascend  (by 125 degrees) through the system of Upper Spiritual Worlds. Gradually, along the way, I (as an integral part of Adam ha Rishon) can correct more and more corrupted, selfish desires, reaching greater “equivalence of form” with the Creator. Following a path of Reshimot,  I would wish to be able (of my own volition) to return to my Root in Spirituality, facilitating  the Fulfillment of the “Thought of Creation”, which was, is and always shall be –The creation of the Creature so it can be filled with the infinite Delight the Creator intends to bestow, for all eternity.
Preparation Question: What does it mean to view reality from the perspective of the Creator?
Since my egoistic nature (“the will to receive”) is so completely opposite the nature of the Creator (Pure Bestowal), I think that the only way I could possibly answer that question is to obtain an “equivalence of form” with the Creator.
Learning how to do that–obtain an “equivalence of form” with the Creator- requires my placing an Altruistic Intention over my (egoistic) desires. This will then (hopefully) attract the “Reforming Light” that will build in me, a “Sixth Sense”-a Masach-a Screen to Feel & reveal the Creator.. This I think, will eventually enable me to reach an “equivalence of form” with the Creator. Easier said than done!!But As Rav Laitman says, (in his book “Kabbalah Revealed”) – “Having it [equivalence of form] grants the owner the same perception and knowledge as that of the Creator”
(1)-My understanding is that here, in the corporeal world, we experience the feeling of pleasure (of our egoistic desires) only at the juncture where the Light meets the desire. After that we cannot feel the Light and the desire (and pleasure) disappear. We then feel a “new” lack (desire) that needs to be filled. A vicious cycle… Easy to experience when eating a favorite food.
But what about (egoistic) activities like playing a favorite sport. When I was younger I could play Tennis all day long! Loved the sport and would even structure my days so I could play as often as possible! It wasn’t so much about winning, more about the joy of playing the game and improving. I would only stop playing because of time constraints, or because of physical exhaustion– it’s hot in Florida! Clearly I was playing Tennis to receive pleasure for self alone..no real thought of desiring to receive for the sake of sharing or for the sake of the creator.
(2)- Wondering if it would be possible to participate in a corporeal activity like playing tennis and perhaps change the intention to a more “altruistic” one by:
(a) Perhaps realizing that all Light (pleasure) is coming to me from the Creator, who only wishes to delight the creature (Adam ha Rishon), and like “the guest and the host” I can bring contentment to the Creator by enjoying what he has provided for me! A bit of a “stretch” I admit…
(b) Perhaps thinking of sharing (with all of the Shechinah) the feelings of joy and gratitude (for the Creator’s gifts) I experience while playing Tennis. Of course, at best this can only be Lo Lishma, but possibly a useful scrutiny and discernment (?)
