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We are all connected. If I share the Truth with others, it helps them. Then, their knowledge of Truth is reflected back at me. The result it that we are are all strengthened in the Truth, like links in a chain or parts of a net. Alone, there can be no chain, no net. The reality is that we are all, in fact, that one chain, that one net. God is in those connections. This has always been true, and the whole point of our studies – the whole point of God’s creation – is to free us of our delusion of separateness and reveal the Truth of our oneness to us.
To be connected – truly connected – is something I’ve always wanted, but never truly managed to do. With the Creator’s guidance, I find myself here in this group, among others who want the same thing – and not for ourselves, but for the Creator. Amazing! As always, I am beyond grateful.
The last week has been nuts. All sorts of old traumas coming up, and no idea why. Then the course was delayed. I couldn’t understand what was happening. Now, today, the course has started and the old traumas have been resolved. What a week! Feels like it was something I needed to go through before moving on. Now I’m ready. I hope to get into a Ten and turbo charge everything I’ve learned so far. Goodbye trauma, hello Creator!
To echo some others here, this course presented both a great hope and a huge challenge. Over the course of the past 2 years or so, I have become acutely aware of the fact that I am very likely a narcissist due to PTSD brought on by difficult experiences in my early life. I say “likely” because I’ve not been diagnosed. However, I have studied deeply and am much more self-aware these days.
The point I’m getting at is that “stumbling upon” Kabbalah, and now having to work with (and for) others in an altruistic, selfless way, will be the most difficult endeavor of my life. Thinking, acting and living in a way that directly challenges my very sensitive ego is going to be, well, let’s just say extremely difficult.
But the truly amazing thing about all of this (and what gives me hope) is the realization that none of this is actually my doing. Nor is it simply a coincidence – however “lucky”. No, tbis is all the plan, the intention, of the Creator. The hell I’ve been through (and unfortunately put many others through) in my life was simply preparation for this moment. I understand now that I needed to spend a long, hard time wandering in the dark so that I would be able to recognize – and appreciate – the Light when it was finally revealed to me.
I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t scared to venture out of my “comfort zone” (which, ironically enough, isn’t comfortable at all). But I’m ready. With the Upper Light all around me – and all of us – we can’t fail. This story – our human story – has a very happy ending. Because that’s the way the Creator intended it to be. I am grateful beyond words to all of you. Thank you.
To me, it seems the big change would be the end of the profit motive and the end of competition – the end of “bigger, better, faster more” and “what’s in it for me?”. We would all be content with having our basic needs met and be more concerned for the welfare of our neighbors and friends than for ourselves. And this would naturally lead to less anxiety, stress and neuroticism due to the fact that we’d all be looking out for each other and we’d be confident that if we fell on hard times, friends would always be there to help. We’ve lost our connection to each other. We need to find it – to find the Creator inside, among and between us – again.
