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Perhaps you are a student who will receive the wisdom by transmission from someone with Jewish roots… in order that you embody the wisdom right where you are, in whichever country or culture that may be? How else would the Light reach everywhere it needs to? No part in the equation is any greater than another.
I loved the video The Rock the Creator Cannot Lift. I have struggled my whole life to understand free will. I have felt that I don´t have any, but that left me with no sense of autonomy or motivation to aim for anything. The first thing that clicked for me was when Tony said you can feel like you´re imprisoned or like a ´treasured guest´. That blew my mind. I am a treasured guest and God has my life covered. Next part – my free will is in actively turning my attention towards the Creator to rebuild the shattered soul. The big events in my life are not within my control, but my focus towards spirituality is. I can´t change the picture on the TV, but I can change how I see it. So this is balancing out for me now and bringing much greater calm and trust in life after so many traumas.
I can work towards lifting that rock.
I hope to consolidate my learning from the last course as I missed some due to work / family commitments. I have no expectations – just an open heart for the course ahead.
I have fallen behind due to work / family, but I´m hoping to catch up to be able to move forward! My expectation is to consolidate my learning so far and expand to receive more.
I am eager to learn more about prayer. I also want to learn about the proper environment and its importance for more advanced studies. The course syllabus seems to provide exactly what I´m looking for, having come through Part 1 & 2. Looking forward to starting! Thank you in advance Julian 🙂
1.  Part 2 was mind-bending, soul-shaking and perspective-shifting. I have written pages of reflections in my journal to keep track. An inspiring element is the accessibility of these teachings and how well presented they are here in this format – it´s a delight to be held through the process in such a way. Thank you to all the teachers involved in this effort. I am finding many voices combine, along with the things I´ve read and videos I´ve watched, to form a growing, inner voice that seems to be propelling me forward – prodding, questioning and prompting me to analyse my behaviours and thoughts.
2. To know that prayer is actually self-judgement – how I laughed (and cried) about all the years I have done my best to bargain and strike deals with the Creator to ease my suffering and the suffering of loved ones. There have been extremely difficult experiences in my life that have caused much trauma and pain. I prayed as I was taught. I never knew why these prayers went unanswered (no solutions provided). I prayed harder, more, better, made promises, but still, nothing. I had a moment of realisation this month, seeing all the begging I have done, visualising those ´prayers´ hanging around in the ether and the Creator being unmoved. For some reason, this provoked a fit of hysterics in me and I laughed and laughed until I could no more. It was just so very profoundly funny. That was a strange, revelatory experience. I felt that when I was laughing, the Creator was too.
3. For my fellow students, I wish a speedy correction, in this lifetime if possible. I believe in our efforts.
