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I am still thinking about what you said here and I have another question nagging at me. In my reality I can see desires or hints of desires out there that seem like they should never be fulfilled. Never. I know many times you have talked about the coarse desires not used at the bottom of the body, (I think corresponding to legs?) And at the end of correction the Creator deals with those for us. Does He just dispel and get rid of them? It seems like some of them should only be depictions of evil that we might achieve more contrast in our capacity to perceive the light, but never to actually exist or be fulfilled. It is hard to imagine that even the Creator could find a way to make certain desires corrected to be in bestowal.
(Sorry this is long to give context.) I want to know if the creature retains access to all the reshimot, or if they disappear to some degree when we move on from one to another?
I understand that time is an artifact of our perception of different states. And I think you are saying that a reshimot is any complete state that exists, or existed. It sounds like they possibly build on each other, like the next one includes the memory of the last one, or is influenced by what happened in the last one. Is this like a version of a video game or an episode/chapter in a story?
One thing that bothers me my whole life is that I can’t access past states, or the states of other people. I want to go back to any time and examine it with new perceptual abilities. I am on the autistic spectrum and I didn’t develop normal awareness of feelings until I was an adult, and it is thrilling to revisit things I knew before with sense I have now and I couldn’t even conceive of then. I want to go into the minds of other people and experience their preferences, their feeling, their identity, their life.. I want to know the WHOLE story. Every second of every life of every creature everywhere.
RPG games are very cathartic to me because I can go into every nook and cranny of that world and know it. I can replay the story as many times are I want. I can feel it from my own perspective encountering it for the first time, or sense how it’s different after I’ve played it once, or imagine it from an NPC’s perspective, or play as a new character, or play with another person. It feels like I can squeeze every drop of experience from every facet of it. I can save it all. If my appreciation of it is incomplete, I can go back and complete it.
It frustrates me that in this world I only have access to my own perspective, except in my dreams. I have extremely elaborate and varied experiences, identities, and lives in my dreams. This makes it annoying that I keep coming back to this one (this life) where there’s really nothing to do but study Kabbalah and observe how much of the world that I don’t have access to. I love the opportunity to study Kabbalah, but what is the point of all the rest of this tantalizing detail? I can’t even clearly remember my own memories that I experienced myself. And I have almost no access to other people’s. I can talk to them or read their stories or watch a movie about them. But, for the most part, each one is an entire universe I don’t have access to, and I don’t have the time or the conceptual capacity for it even if I did. I travel a lot, but I mostly see tiny hints of huge stories and places I will never get to know.
When we reach correction will it all be saved? Can we go back and examine every one of a quadrillion stories and moments that we each took to get there? Will we be able to fit every corner of the world into our perception?
Read the Zohar every night, making my brain pause and enunciate each word individually, with my mind on the idea that I am surrounded by colossal forces whose attention turns to me when I read it… and that somehow that attention trickles through me into my reality and elevates it.
And then get a Ten and tell the Upper Force to Its human faces that I’m here for It.
In concealment you explore every facet of the lack of the Creator, including the concept of the total non-existence of the thing you desire. The frustration and uncertainty causes one to either cling to shells in denial, or long more fiercely for revelation.
