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I have just finished Part 2 week 3 lessons.  I was / still am a Christian but my understanding has changed. I don’t want to distract anyone by continuing to reference Christianity. I had something happen to me 3 years ago that was explosive and I felt it physically and still feel it spiritually. Some kind of awakening. I began to understand the scripture differently and began seeing verses I never noticed before which was strange because I have read the Bible faithfully most of my life. First it was the numbers , 3, 12, 7, 40, and 5. I discovered the Ages, Aries , pisces, even aquarius being foretold. Then the number 4 and the upper and lower mind. Davids 5 stones ( the 5 senses) Jesus 5 wounds. crucifying the senses. Fellow christians dont seem to see the teachings as i do now. I was wondering . Is there a Key, I mean. I have come to understand the word “bread” tends to mean nourishment / wisdom I think ? , but what about other words like ” river , or mountain, etc.” I know I am getting ahead of myself. I know there are no shortcuts. I came to Kabbalah looking for tools so that I could be successful at following the teachings of Jesus in the Gospels; because they teach to love others as yourself and to die to self in order to be born of spirit. This sounds very much like what I am learning here as well, except here it is explained in a way that gives me tools to actually achieve this goal. I desire with all my heart to be able to read the scriptures and understand what they truly teach.
Every once in a while we meet someone who radiates peace. I have always wanted to be like them. This weeks lesson is a giant step for me. It all rings true. Thank you
My goal is comprehend and embody true love. I wish to become as much like the creator as possible. To learn How to let go of desire for myself and replace it with a desire to give to the creator with intent as well as actions. I wish to have my eyes open and to be able to see the creator in everything.
I think part 2 video has Answered my question. 🙂 The influences slowly bring us to a place of finding the one influence that we can control.  Is there a limit to the number of lives we have to succeed in this. ?
This does make sense. I do question though. I have had some pretty remarkable synchronicities in the last few years that have brought me to this place of seeking. Without these things happening I may never have arrived at Kab U at all. I had been reading the Old Testament Literally, also the New Testament my whole life and I know it very well, but all of a sudden I began to see verses and meanings that I had been blind too. An example is In Luke 11;52 , Jesus talking to the Scribes and Pharisees . He says. ” Woe to you experts in the law ‘for you have taken away the KEYS of knowledge: you yourselves have not entered in, and those who were entering you have hindered.” That verse caused me to question my understanding of the entire new testament. I still knew that ” Love God and love thy neighbor as they self” Where his most important teachings. I am actually here trying to learn how to do both of those things to the fullest. I see wisdom here and I think you have the KEYS of Knowledge that are spoken of in that verse. I almost feel like I was led here. Yes I know I could make the choice to turn back but that doesn’t seem like a choice to me at this point. I also question about those who have not witnessed or been shown or been influenced in ways that we have. Is that free will ? or have they just not had the events or understandings that prompted me to keep searching ?
To choose internality or to choose externality. My understanding is that internality is the long term benefit or cost caused by a choice?? So choosing to seek to become more like the creator even though it may no show benefits right away or not seeking to be nearer to the creator. ? to be honest I am not sure
