[Miryam]

I have been observing my mind, emotions and actions for many years now, and have long been aware that even seemingly altruistic behaviors are self-centered at their core. However, it is only now that I am recognizing just how absolute this will to receive is, how I measure everything I do and don’t do accordingly, how much I am its prisoner. I have been aching and praying for so many years now to be an instrument of love, to be free of the incessant emptiness of wanting and getting. And, from the moment I first felt this torment, literally in my heart, I have understood that God (Creator) placed it there, and somehow, because of this knowing, I have, through so many dark moments, come back over and over to a faith that God would not forsake me.  He hasn’t. I have found my spiritual home.  I am on my knees in gratitude.

[Miryam]

I expect to gain a clearer sense of what it means to study with KABU.

[Miryam]

Dear Friends,

My name is Miryam. I live in New Mexico, USA. I am feeling drawn to KABU like a moth to a flame. What do I hope to receive from this course? A deeper connection with Life, advancement towards becoming an instrument of Bestowal.

[Miryam]

That the will to receive for myself (which I think of as the will to get) be transformed to the will to receive to bestow.

[Miryam]

A wordless prayer that emanates from my heart, beseeching Creator to help me see deeply into all apparent suffering, help me to sense/see/trust/know God’s absolute benevolence.

[Miryam]

Hello!

My name is Miryam. I have a yearning to be free of this incessant wanting to get, get, get in all of it’s subtle and blatant forms. I have had glimpses of something else, something so beyond all of that, and those glimpses won’t leave me alone. That’s why I’m here.

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