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I think I already answered that in my first post for this course… I want to know my true place in the world – or following the theme/title of this course, I want to know where in “REALITY” I truly fit.
i don’t want to hold this huge feeling of confusion inside me anymore. I want answers, and only those that the Creator can give me through his plan for me.I’ve discovered the true nature of the soul. That my part of the original soul is now, my “point in the heart.”
That not all prayers are answered and why.
That the ego should not be destroyed but developed. Some may use the word ‘corrected.’
That reincarnation is real.There’s more I could say but this is a good start. Coming from a stern religious background of opposite beliefs,
this is saying something…I’m a grandmother and great-grandmother. I was born and raised in Wisconsin, U.S.A. I now live in the middle of Tennessee in a small rural town. It’s quite the culture shock, but it’s warmer. (The snow storm we’re going through right now isn’t half as bad as some I’ve lived through up North). I tried to start learning kabbalah last year, got distracted and came back with a renewed dedication last Fall. This is my 5th course. What I want or expect out of this course is to continue on my path to my own “correction.”
At this point I really want to do a lot of reading, asking questions, listening – to understand the history and foundation of kabbalah well enough to be able to grasp internally what I have to do to move forward.
I want to put my inner house in order. I have always sensed and believed in a Loving Creator. Out of love and respect for nature, I want to work toward feeling right with the world. I want to understand better my true place here and follow the path that the Creator wants me to be on. Sounds like lofty words but I really am on a very serious, deep personal mission. I’ve been fooled by religion more than once. I’m so thankful to have found something ‘older than all religions.’
The “converter” is the environment. If it’s a nurturing environment things will grow. If not, things will suffer stifled growth, or even die. I liked the real world analogy of growing the tomatoes, from the recommended video.
If we plant ourselves in an environment that nourishes our spiritual growth we will feel and see the results…not only in our relationships but science has finally caught up to the old sages who have thought (and practiced) that our emotional, mental and spiritual outlook on life greatly affects our physical health. ‘
When we work to develop, nurture and grow our connection with others, we treat each other more with love and appreciation which can impact how we treat our physical environment as well. There’s more harmony and all around balance, inside and outside ourselves.
Before I started studying, learning and absorbing Kabbalah I was in a spiritual dark hole, all by myself. I’m not there anymore.
The biggest inspirational experience is to find out, not only am I not meant to be alone on this journey, but that it’s required to connect with others. It may look like such a basic thing for someone who’s kabbalah experience spans many years. But to someone who first realizes this, it’s quite a profound experience.
My prayer for my fellow students…continue to “connect.” It’s a wonderful place to be when you get outside yourself. And to encourage them all to continue to help spread the Light.
I’m so grateful to you all – fellow students, instructors, (those behind the scenes helping to make this all possible), for being here with me during this journey.
I am profoundly thankful…
I’m very glad I attended the live Q&A today. I heard everything that was said and it all made sense. Most of the time things don’t bother me anymore. But once in a while, like the last couple days, I had some real bad memories come flowing back and I had to deal with them. (…it happens, I’m still human, a corporeal being). It is like – taking 5 steps forward and 3 steps back sometimes, but there’s still progress. Just needed to hear someone say out loud that kabbalah is different. Not a cult. Nothing like that at all. And a few clear examples – that helped. It’s as simple as that. If I put anyone off I’m sorry. And the coldness – telling me that maybe this wasn’t for me (?)Â It was like someone throwing a pan full of ice cold water in my face. It felt harsh, and cold. Where the heck else would I go? I’ve been searching for many years to find true spirituality.
Obviously if the Creator felt now wasn’t my time, I wouldn’t be here right now. Yes it’s a war, and I believe I’ve successfully fought mine to ‘get out’ and to heal enough (on my own) to reach out again…
I don’t blame anyone for what I went through. It was the Creator’s way of igniting the point in my heart. (“There Is None Else Besides Him.”) So, no regrets. I’m here. I see a far greater purpose than worrying about my past experiences.
I’m taking it all in as a valuable learning experience and I’m thankful for the feedback and suggestions.
