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How do we want the womb (Light) to influence and evolve us?
There’s actually 2 parts to this 1 question. Who does ‘us’ refer to? It could be us individually or us collectively. I want to individually reach out more into the collective us, to help us all get more of the “Light”, to “influence and evolve us” all more into the state we are meant to be in. It’s a process we all want to learn individually and collectively. It’s about “connection.” That word that Julian said we’d be hearing a lot of in this course. Of all the graphs and Hebrew words I can’t remember (but try to), this is one concept that’s coming through loud and clear. My job here is to learn more about this process, (and to keep trying to learn the Hebrew, by osmosis if nothing else – it’s a beautiful language).
The second question is the action part of the first question I answered. After learning how to gain the beginning stages of experiencing the Light. My desire is for more practical understanding of how this is achieved and sustained.
How to make lemonade out of lemons… 😃
An old trite saying that means so much in the context that I’m calling it into. The fact that conflict is what fuels our growth. The act of rising above our struggles together is what brings moves us forward, brings us spiritual enlightenment. At first I found it strange when Julian said that a group without conflict is a group that’s not growing. But it really makes sense. That’s one point that really resonated with me from the last course.
What do I expect in this course? From reading the syllabus, I expect that I will learn more about the mechanics of being in group working toward making connections. Not exactly sure how all this works, but I expect that I will be crossing into a whole new spiritual experience.
What most inspires me is coming to an understanding of the force behind all of creation. It’s a relief to know that it’s not up to imperfect mankind, the collective ego to make all things right in the world. It explains all the failure I see around me. It inspires me to reach higher, or rather think and feel higher to make the connections necessary to bring a true healing to our world.
Which brings me to the next question…what have I learned about myself. I think the biggest revelation is to understand why I suffered so much. I was horribly spiritually abused in a cult. And, life hasn’t been kind to me. So, I’ve been timid about this learning experience… at first being afraid that I was getting myself served up some more tasteless kookaide. (lol, I misspelled that by accident, but looking at it, yeah, it really does fit). Please don’t take offense. You don’t know the depth of what I’ve gone through. It took me 10 years plus, to start looking outside myself again to trust anyone, any human with my spirituality. I kept praying. I prayed for years. I’m slow at learning out of necessity to take things in as I can assimilate them realistically for myself. I can say my ego was working overtime to heal myself, looking inward to understand how I got so hooked in, but looking up and outside myself with my prayers for answers I still needed to heal my soul.
It’s such a relief to know that their are other souls, or ‘other points in the heart’ that feel the same way I do. It’s a relief now to know that I’m not alone. I’ve been curled up so tight inside my own heart and mind for so many years. I’ve cried, prayed in pain and deep loneliness to find the right way to reach “HIM” the Creator, the Light. Now, I’ve come to a point where I can really start to let go of the pain from a logical, not just emotional point of view. There’s a reason behind everything that happens. It’s not always pleasant, but if we learn from our experience, true healing and the release of emotional pain can happen.
I haven’t fully grasped everything I’ve learned so far, but I’ve learned enough that’s inspired me to keep learning.
What do I want for my fellow students in their spiritual development? One word comes to mind, patience. Be patient with yourself, and be patient with all those around you. Understand that none of us is perfect but we can all come together with mutual love and connection as long as we keep trying, and keep learning. AND! (Before I forget…) WELCOME CONFLICT!–whenever it comes in because working out our conflicts, our differences is the way we grow above our own egos, and truly grow spiritually together.
A couple things I found interesting, intriguing – kabbahlists don’t live separate from the world, they are ‘in it.’ They make a point of interacting with people who don’t study kabbalah. I was once in a religious cult that taught ‘one should live in the world, but separate from it.’ The kabbahlah concept makes so much more sense when you consider our true interconnection. The other thing I found interesting was the video on depression – the spiritual consequences of not having an inner belief system. Of course there are things that can cause depression that need medical intervention, but it was great to me to see that kabbalah realizes this connection.
If all were interconnected there would be nobody dying of starvation. There would be no poverty or homeless people or the need for homeless shelters. There would be no need for shelters or safe houses for people escaping abuse or terrorism. In fact, there wouldn’t really be any need for police departments because everybody would be following the law of nature. Well, at least there would be less need as the connections grow.
Everybody would truly be treating everyone as a part of themselves because we truly are all connected.
After all of humanity was connected, would there really be the need for all these government organizations? I don’t think so. People would naturally do the right thing every day of their lives.
And of course we wouldn’t be destroying the only Earthly home we have to live on as it is now being destroyed all in the name of greed.
And frankly, it would be a huge relief to return to the reality of what truth is. I’m so tired of the political games being played in this world.
I could write a book to answer this question. . .
We cannot advance spiritually on our own. We need to strive to connect to other points in the heart that were separated in the Upper Level and now exist here, at our level. The only way to achieve connection is to be in a group striving for the same spiritual connection. Within a kabbalah group we grow by actively resolving conflicts by rising above our own egos to resolve our conflicts. Each conflict resolved takes us all forward on our spiritual path. We can’t do that without interconnection. Anyway, that’s how I see it so far. . .
