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What I see out in the world are a lot of spiritual traps, paths that lead down yet another “rabbit-hole”,(I live in Glastonbury, UK which is full of them ) and I thought, that s OK, they are there to teach us discernment.
BUT – listening to the idea that all my personal little difficulties, laziness, procrastination etc, which do indeed stop me from making progress AND I learn they have all been sent to me by the Creator, exactly for that purpose. Well -while I’m taking this in, right now, I don’t find it comforting like some of you seem to !
For one thing, it s downright invasive ! If I don’t even THINK MY OWN THOUGHTS, but the Creator puts them in my mind – then whose mind is it, anyway? If the ONLY place I have free choice is to change my need for the Creator, then surely that isnt much of a choice, either. I m sure more will be revealed, but right now is a complete conundrum !
I dont really know what “the desire to bestow” to the Creator means. I understand that if I act in bestowal towards another human being, I may get a response of delight, & I can kinda forward that upwards, so with my pleasure in receiving thanks I can say ” not for my sake but thine”.
But other than that I m lost, and please can you give me an actual example of what you mean, in this world, in your answer, to help me understand, thank you.
It seems to me that the videos are saying, “Watch out! You re going to get tested! ”
If, having some degree of desire to bond with G-d, and the result is to be pushed away, I m not sure the result will be to try harder. If the harder you try, the more you get pushed away, until the point of complete doubt and despair – well, yes, I can see , at that point you might give it 100%.     Does that mean a 100% tough test?
In terms of parenting, this is “Tough Love”. It seems that what Tony said, is we will only receive help when coming from this place. It does make sense, only a complete need will produce complete bonding, which is limitless. That is asking – well, everything of us , so – is it really coming from a will to bestow?
This question is a step up, to try imagining this, and I have not yet looked at the videos, which might feel like cheating!
So, since everything is G-d, then I am, too, even though I have always experienced myself as just “ME”.   Sometimes I have tried to find my inner core, & actually, I cant, it feels like underneath my physical feelings , emotions & thoughts, behind them, there is silence. Observation. From where I am now, I m taking a wild guess that G-d is also in this condition, and has created us, His creatures, so he can experience Himself. In this wild imagining, I also imagine He takes delight as we wake up, and understand another little bit, get that much closer to G-d. And, just maybe, to the consequent union as being more conscious?
I have always liked the saying that we are each a drop in the ocean , so how about,also :- we are the ocean in a drop?
Dear Jennifer, Your words really moved me, thank you for describing your life so clearly.
I hear when you describe your pain, and I deeply respect the spirit in which you are able to see the gift in that, and celebrate life in its bigger aspects. I recognise a degree of mastery and self-empowerment in your acceptance , the recognition of the greater good at work.
