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One of the deeper understandings I have gained is the difference between my ego’s desires and my spirit’s true desires. I desire a union with the creator. However, my more profound desire is to love in order to give and by giving reveal something of the creator’s light to the world. This can only happen by the creator’s gift and my acceptance of it. I have nothing of my own to give.
I am a retired Christian priest who lost faith in any organised religion because the leadership seemed to desire power and to protect the religion in any way they could at the expense of the individual who they have wounded. I believed that in each of us is a God-shaped space and a me-shaped space in God. One of the early Christian fathers said ‘He became man so man could become god” I have always desired union with the divine not to win heaven or to avoid hell but because I love god.
Since beginning to study Kabbalah it seems to provide a system to achieve the unity I seek. I am constantly asking for that union. and desire to give in whatever way I can. Am I so egotistical/mistaken that the creator cannot or will not respond? At 74 am I too old/stupid? What more can I do? Or am I destined to continue to call out to that deep and dazzling darkness,
I cannot change my perception of reality without a union with the creator. so I need the Kabbalah to lead me to that union that will enable me to see the true reality using my spiritual sense rather than my world sense. as the Kabbalah helps increase my desire I plead to the creator to give me light to perceive.
Sadly to many religions use fear to encourage their followers to follow their beliefs. What has blown my mind is the idea that the creator gives us a vital roll in fulfilling the plan and provides the means to overcome the ego. the ego tries to convince me that I am responsible for my success of failure. when the truth is that the creator will bring me to completion and all I need is the desire to follow. As my desire to bestow grows so does recognition of the gifts I have. Letting go of the past can be hard, but the love of the creator helps me overcome and live. The joy I feel is changing me.
I hope to receive a deeper understanding of KABBALAH and begin to progress in my journey using Kabbalah and eventually contributing whatever I can to encourage the unity of all
Hi, I am Stephen I am 73 years old and a retired Anglican Priest. I am married to Carolyn and we have two adult children, Rebecca and Tim. I am a pipe smoker and have various hobbies and interests. I am a wheelchair user. I love life and have a deep joy and sense of peace.
After retirement, I felt that Religion was not for me, It seemed to me they were somehow out of date, and were failing to provide a path of union with God. At first, I felt I had lost my faith in religion and my unity with the divine, my inner sense of the divine presence within. But after watching some videos on Kabbalah I began to believe I was being called to a different understanding of the divine.
I am looking forward to learning more.
