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To me freedom is a sense of inner peace which is very difficult to reach, hold on to, and eventually achieve.
On one hand, it is very comforting to accept that all the pain I say around the world comes from Him and for a reason, so it is not my responsibility to do anything about it. So the comfort comes accepting which is very hard to do.  On the other hand, if I see all this pain and He is only a loving, bestowing entity toward His creatures, then that leads me to realize what I sense as pain is actually Him kicking me from behind to do lots of corrections. Now I wish He can answer my prayers and let me know how to stop seeing all this world pain and see His loving guidance toward his creatures as I learned in the first course.
I often wondered if life was created so it is to be a Reformatory school for the Souls by merging them into a body with TOO many egoistic needs. Those who succeed in controlling the ego get out of the reformatory school which is life.
1. The 4 phases of light is the most inspirational portion, totally fascinating! You see it everywhere. One sees it in the Big bang 13.8 billion years, in the formation of the solar system 4.5 billion years, in the birth of a child.
2. The more I learn about this wisdom, the less I seem to know and the farther I see myself being away from the Creator. However, I do not seem to be able to stop exploring it since I first encountered it in 2019 even if I wished. There seems to be an invisible wall that stops me from connecting with others despite how much I pray for it to dissolve. At times, I wonder if the reason is that I do not have Equivalence of Form with the Upper Force and hence I am denied by Him to connect. Other times, I blame it on my Ego and continue to pray to Him to tame it or at least make it easy enough for me to take the first step.
3. What I wish for fellow students is that they do not encounter the difficulties I faced, and I hope their learning and journey is successful for I know the more of them in this world, attaining the wisdom successfully, the better it is for all of us.
Now I know that I am on the path of suffering, it still does not make it any easier to shift. Definitely, more work is needed. The good news is I have FAITH on my side which is helping.
From what I understand so far, to get in touch with the upper force is to be like the upper force or have the same intentions. Since we are made of exactly the opposite (the will to receive vs. the will to bestow), all we can do is change our intentions and keep praying, especially when we fall flat on our face for failing. So do not forget to get up, dust yourself off, correct, and try again.
