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“Rechimot” of the last push back of the Light on the desire to “Reveal the Creator” (Ohr Machef betush on the Tabur) and knowing that The “Aviout” is decreasing as it rises to the next “Peh” which is the “Rosh” of the next “10 Saferot” (AB, SAG, MA, BON probably missing one-smile) and knowing that it will get easier in the next “Olaam” (AK, A, B, Y, and Assayah).
In English, the desire to reveal the Creator is TOO strong and the Hope to find a better and an easier way to learn how to “Bestow” along with A LOTS of “Prayer” will obligate the Creator to grant the seeker’s WISH and allow the Light to enter the vessel! Is what motivates me to persevere. So I have several tools on my team: A strong desire, Hope to succeed, Knowing that it can only be granted by a heart felt PRAYER, the books, the friends, the Rav,and knowing that in the end we will all be granted the final correction despite how many time one has to comeback and do it all over again.
To be in “Equivalence of Form” with the Upper force. Loving, giving, and accepting that there is “None else beside Him” Who gives you disturbance to grow. A lot easier said than done.
In the far past, I physically moved from place to place, country to country looking for an ideal environment and finally realized, it was all in vain. Eventually, I realized that I needed to isolate and dig myself a hole for a perfect environment away from people as I saw that the ideal environment does not exist. Sadly, I discovered in Kabbalah that this was the exact wrong thing to do, for He can only be revealed in a specialized group and connection with others.
Now, I am using “Faith above reason” that is recommended by Kabbalah to assist me in accepting the terms as this quest for revealing the Creator has not subsided since I turned 13. At the rate I am going, I think I may not find it in this lifetime. As the teaching says, one may need several reincarnations to finally learn the purpose of our life and where do we come from and where do we go when we die.
Given what I have seen so far, I, truly, do not want to come back to do this all over again. I am either a SLOW learner, or this is NOT any easier for others who are also in the same boat and struggling like I am.
In all situations. Concealment is the denial of attainment which it increases the desire for it. In desires for food, shelter, sex, money & power, knowledge and finally spirituality. Any concealment in them ends up in more motivation (using the brain) to attain them.
The question is: Where do these desires come from? The creature or the Creator!!!!! If it is the Creator, then He is increasing one’s desire to attain it. If it is the creature, then God help us as we are doomed (smile).
A hungry man will seek food where it is available, but when denied in all of the attempt he will reach the level of an animal to get it by stealing or even killing. The same goes for all the level of desires listed by Kabbalah. Now “Shame” (maybe tzimtzum aleph at birth) and found in Beni Adam forces one to seek the desires with the least amount of damage to society and oneself, but when denied (depending on the level of desire and level of soul) can either descent to the “Animate level” or allow the soul to rule to forgo or moderate the desire to a level that is productive for both society and oneself.
In This course and in all the courses I take in KabU, I am looking for the reason why are we here, where are we going, why we were born and where do we go when we die. “The Blueprint of Creation” is the headline of this course, and knowing the Blueprint of Creation might help reveal the Creator by looking at His design (Blueprint) to see the purpose of His Creation.
Wow! Jam packed session. You certainly saved the best for last! I think I now understand the emblem of the tree on the website everywhere. Or to be honest, maybe I do understand it: the Massach is the line dividing the tree and the root! Malkut is the root and the tree is “the society” (Benai Baruch); Spirituality is the fruit (Ohr Hozer -reflected light) where society grows. One has to do Tsim Tsum (restriction on their spiritual desire) on the root in order for the tree to grow. First, the buds of the tree require “bestow to bestow”, then the tree needs the root to transfer water and it becomes “receive in order to bestow”. Without a root, there is no tree and without the light (Ohr hozer) there are no roots. By the same talking, The deeper the roots, the bigger the tree that needs the light (Ohr Hozer) to shade the inanimate and the animate alike. Incredible! And very difficult to put into words!
