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I have been so attached in life to “understanding”, of “getting it”, and here – this material is so elusive, you have a minute of it almost living inside of you, and the next day I am looking at the same page as I have never seen it! I am trying to reconstruct its flow almost daily. It is difficult emotionally. Sometimes I just want to blame my age 🙂 Sometimes I experience various sensations while listening to the material, and I am aware of the attachments to these sensations, and I also become aware of the reactions to the absence of the sensations or emotional response.
I also tried to practice all my life an honesty towards what I feel and how I act and I have done my best not to hide from myself and make excuses. This work is, on the one hand, very forgiving and accepting, on the other hand it is quite brutal because this life-long practice of mine is really intensified. Experiencing not so lofty of an emotion just takes my breath away.
My role in the process is to stay committed to the process of learning, to be completely transparent with myself about my actions, thoughts and feelings
I checked out the blog with Dr. Laitman you referred to where it says:
“Why don’t we feel the Creator? Because there is no unity between us. If we want to feel the force that surrounds, envelops, and includes all of creation within it, we need to connect and to become as one.”
Why do we have to become as one in order to feel Upper Reality? Does it mean that our personal journey cannot bring this attainment?
The reality is a beautiful and complex playground where we learn how to be, how to grow, how to bare, how to reach and how to become close to the spiritual reality of the Upper World of the Creator
