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Hello all! I live in Boston, USA, long time ago from USSR.  Since early age I have been aware and experienced the unseen world. I looked at many traditions attempting to reach a coherent understanding and guidance into the spiritual world. I am here now .. and I hope to find its guidance and wisdom to be my soul’s journey
I continue learning about myself – how I talk to others and myself, how I respond in words and actions, what is behind these words and actions, where the authenticity lies. I continue learning the concepts and continue feeling them.
I have been so attached in life to “understanding”, of “getting it”, and here – this material is so elusive, you have a minute of it almost living inside of you, and the next day I am looking at the same page as I have never seen it! I am trying to reconstruct its flow almost daily. It is difficult emotionally. Sometimes I just want to blame my age 🙂 Sometimes I experience various sensations while listening to the material, and I am aware of the attachments to these sensations, and I also become aware of the reactions to the absence of the sensations or emotional response.
I also tried to practice all my life an honesty towards what I feel and how I act and I have done my best not to hide from myself and make excuses. This work is, on the one hand, very forgiving and accepting, on the other hand it is quite brutal because this life-long practice of mine is really intensified. Experiencing not so lofty of an emotion just takes my breath away.
