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Since I amthe will to receive I will accept this inclusively being here on earth at service having a pysical form. In order to serve for my unique purpose my earhly needs should be covered, otherwise I can’t serve, and I hope that the course will help me to allow myself to have needs and to wanting them to be covered. Then I wish to become more able to hear exactly what the Creator wish my purpose would be here and if I really am supposed to accompany Germany to get connected to its soul (or He wish me for smth else to serve). And that serving in that mission would covered my needs too. And that He will revealed to me what to do, where to go, what to say and to whom – concret steps and how to take them. And finally but not least I wish to find and experience a strong group with strong connection in order to feel a strong ground in this connection as a support in fullfilling my mission here. So I desire to learn ‘how to’ – long story short 😄
Although the principle ‘there is no else besides him’ was not knew to me, I got inside out about it during the course, so bad, that I even could not formulate questions precisely, but now after a while I slowly do, and I hope I can get more clarity there, for the questions are very much related to the ego and it’s structure. I have studied A Course in Miracles before, where the ego and its mechanisms were very detailed described among other things. I have learned that the ego is not only the ‘one’ which wants to get/have things for itself, but which is hypnotising me (the soul, the Self) in order to keep me in the idea of separation and even to demage and destroy me in any way. I am happy to hear is about practical appliance, I guess this course will have an imediate impact on my life, that will be wonderful.
Rather triggered than inspired: that evil too comes from Creator, because everything comes from Him. I still can’t take it. Evil comes from ego, and its creation was man’s idea. Man could have been just laughing about the snake’s proposal, but he chose not to, so it was his/my choice to create the ego and to serve it. The Creator still love man above his ego, but the man must live with the consequences of its ego, here on earth. Now the ego does not really exist, and nothing is truly existent, what is made by it. While only what the Creator creates does truly exist. Saying that everything I percieve and experience through the body here on earth is from Him feels to me like a sin, like I project my malignancy onto Him.
This point brought a big resistance in me, and I even can not differentiate if this resistance is within my soul or within the ego. But even if it is in the ego, my ego seems to protect and defend the Creator, what is quite well.
My wish for my fellows is to be so vigilant as they can in order to recognize the ego and its mechanisms and not to grope in.
💓 thank you Seth. If I do not get more egoistic I will remain unemployed and alone. And every day in this situation is a day to long, because it goes for years, and the times are rough. I don’t know how to say it, but I definetly need to be in group. I feel like I am dying for years, and it is definetly about connection – which should not cease to exist! – in one heart and in one spirit. If I can’t experience this soon, I will die. Now this is very egoistic, to express needs making pressure expressing. But I am like dying.
I was living like that, putting the other’s interests before mine, and I tremendously got out of balance, because some of the members haven’t followed the same rule. I even couldn’t develop methods how to succed in getting my needs met. Only in the few last years I learn to open up for myself. I’m kind of ‘another way around’. ‘Love your brother as yourself’ is a very wanted door by the ego, which will abuse it. I’m struggling getting ‘normal egoistic’ in some parts of me, I don’t have a method, do you have one?
