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I desire to get more in-depth about how to connect with people in the world and to connect with the Creator at the same time, together with them. – I think this may be key for us to be able to become part of a group (a Ten) who practice Kabbalah successfully together.
I think the best thing about the first 10 weeks of study for me is very egoistic, but, I think, in a good way: I really feel I began to break through the hold my ego has on me, in ways that I haven’t previously experienced. I expect to learn wonderful things in the time to come and to transcend further. I do hope to learn a few more “tricks” about how to deal with an ego that uses my heavy PTSD against me.
Most of all I am looking forward to the week when we will use what we have learned to connect in practice, a first taste of what people do in a Ten (a minion or group of people who practice Kabbalah together in real time).
I know we are in good hands here. 🙂
I think what I most learned about myself is the fact that my PTSD is being used by my ego.
But of course, I learned so much more, not only about myself but about Kabbalah, and therefore about reality and how reality works.
I have written about a lot of the many inspirations I have received during the course, in the fora as we went through the weeks. I have also written about what I wish for my fellow students. So I feel that writing it all again here would be a repetition.
I feel I am so slow in catching up with everything, especially at this point in time. Every moment counts and I want to continue to begin the next chapter: Kabbalah in Action. I am looking forward to seeing you all there. 🙂
I have realized something about myself. That worry I always have about not being good enough to participating in helping to make the world a good world, it is another ego thing. Why? Because if I’m not good enough, the world won’t loose much in me perishing.
Understanding this actually gives me a sense of peace of mind. I will still not feel good about people thinking I am evil, but I am free to pursue my own goal, which is simply to help make a better world – and more than anything I still want to attain Equivalence of Form. It would be so awesome to be part of bringing peace to the world – not peace in the sense that there are no opposites, but a world of balance, a world that is what it is intended to be by the Creator. That is what I want to be part of.
Will I be part of it? I don’t know. But I know I won’t worry about not being good enough anymore, I will simply do the best I can as much as I can.
Shalom to the world, my friends. 🙂
Physically there isn’t much I can do. I don’t have money and I’m not in a position of power. I could perhaps reach out to a network of people many of whom possess these things, but I can’t really imagine how I would rationalize doing that.
But I am not giving up. I am going to try and have a role through spiritual means (which was always my aim in life anyway), and by that I mean I will continue to work with Kabbalah until I get killed or attain Equivalence of Form with the Creator. Along the way I hope I will be able to join a Ten (a minion, a group of people who work together as Kabbalists).
I hope my answer is satisfying.
Bless you and thank you to my fellow students for being here and for participating in learning about Kabbalah! And bless you and thank you to our instructors who spend so much time teaching us and answering our questions!
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PS. I am continuously praying (I do it the Kabbalistic way) for peace and for healing of the many people whose souls are so burdened by hatred that they are threatening to drag the world down with them and forcing the rest of us to go into self defensive positions or into hiding who we are (as we have already had to do for many years where I live in Scandinavia).
To view reality from the perspective of the Creator is to have the intention of bestowal in everything you do with all-encompassing love and without egoism. It cannot mean not having any egoistic inclination since that would mean being the Creator rather than viewing reality from His perspective, which is what we are asked to do and is the only thing we can do.
The closest we can get to being able to view reality from the perspective of the Creator is when we achieve the state of Lishma.
