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What has inspired me is this wisdom of correct receiving through connection that can be felt in the course work. I have learned my responsibility to correct my part that is in other souls. I wish for my fellow students deep connection that brings an eternal filling of the light.
In context of: Kabbalah teaches that the No. 1 issue humanity will face in the near future will be our inability to connect to each other above our growing ego.
Does destiny hold more power than free will? I ask in regards to the spiritual desire within me pushing me to seek the Creator. This led to connecting with groups from different paths. I experienced deep connection in a group, this connection brought (as I have learned from the Kabbalah courses) insights of Kabbalah concepts, but when shared connection turned to rejection. Path and group, one after the other connection, insight, rejection.
The spiritual desire was bringing Kabbalistic insights but finding this path took over 30 years. I now have a lot to unlearn. If I would have truly had free will I am sure I would have chosen the shorter path instead of the path of suffering endured.
As the wine skin parable goes, I am an old skin filled with old wine (old to point of vinegar), I cannot hold the new wine (current Kabbalah teachings) until I become empty of old wine and develop a new skin to hold the new wine (10).
Was the connection in those groups real as they did bring insights from the light?
What was the purpose of the insights that brought rejection and took a life time to reveal the Kabbalah path?
Is there purpose in growing my ego in rejection fear that has distorted my perception and by projection to the world as a whole?
And again, does destiny hold more power than free will?
Issues would be approached in manner to solve/evolve by actions of loving the other and loving the Creator.
I do not have experiential knowledge to answer these questions. Currently I am going on faith that what I am learning in studies will soon translate into my everyday experience. I think by coming together with other points in the heart with shared goal of attracting the upper reforming light we are able to form a vessel to attract and receive the light. As each of us are part of the same vessel then what happens to one happens to all that are part of the vessel.
Hi Gianni, not sure how to ask this question as even the question is unclear to me. I have had a spiritual desire within for as long as I can remember. What this desire seemingly has brought over my 60 years of life is being a target for abuse from every place I have search so far to find a home with others of like mind. Now I am here in Kabbalah and hearing I have been chosen by nature to work to increase this spiritual desire with others. My torn and tattered insides are rebelling against moving towards being in a group of ten. Fear of the responsibiliy, fear of letting others down, fear of being a hindrance to others, fear of once again being told I do not belong. How can I do what needs to be done so the reforming light can transform these fears to keep me from quitting? The oscillating between desire to just stick to the process knowing it is the purpose of creation and the desire to quit to save myself the humiliation is on a rapid cycle and creating difficulty to find footing.
What I can say about my personal work with the light that reforms is that my egoistic nature has been exposed, is very resistant, and is trying to create all forms of barriers to distract from the spiritual path. Even though I feel in a position of exile, what keeps strengthening the reforming light’s influence on my ego desires are the teachers, the lectures, the book readings, the reading and connection within the forums, and the praying a whole prayer from my heart. Currently, I am occupying a space of faith above reason while weathering this egoistic storm.
